The Real Me

Who I am?
Now there's one basic question for everyone to wonder, think about and answer.

It's one difficult question, because there's no right or wrong answers and there's absolutely no teacher, friend, guru, mentor or divine force to check whether the reply was a correct one. One must rely on oneself. What a challence, I say. Let's meet it head on.

Now, I believe in the power of prayer. I belive in instincts and gut feeling. I believe that my inner voice will guide me if I let it. That's the real me.

I believe that when I keep on making lists and seeing the same dreams coming up again and again that those are the true dreams and future goals. And that they're part of the real me.

The real me... some parts change as the life goes on, but the core... it doesn't. Right now I feel happy, relaxed, serene, feminine. I love growing my hair long (although I believe that I'll dye my hair red again before Christmas). I like myself thin and in good shape. Getting enough of sleep and eating right suits me. Spending lots of time outdoors is good for me. Writing things down is good for me.

In fact, I love the person I've become.

The real me has dreams which have stayed with me for a quite a while. I dream about pretty ordinary things; getting my MA done, getting a job and career started, getting married, having children, living in a nice place with my family, having guinea pigs, taking long walks in my garden, having cherry/apple/plum trees in my garden and loads of berries (black currants, strawberries, rasberries & gooseberries), travelling across the USA, writing bestseller novels...

It's funny. If you would have asked me few years ago I would have said that I'm a business chick with a family on the side. Now I'd say that I'm a family woman, who has a career in doing what she loves and enjoys the most. This option feels better. It feels right. It feels... the real me.

Sure, time and people change. Who knows where I am this time next year! But I'm looking forward to it. I'm looking at the future with optimism and a wide smile. I can't wait for all the great things to happen!!!!!