Going on a guilt trip...?

Now I'm the kinda gal who rarely changes her mind once I've made my plans.

But, today, I find myself torn between the two choises again. To stay here with my boyfriend's family or to visit my own?

I had already decided that I'm going to stay here and be with my boyfriend's family. But then mum came over and mentioned that I'm making a mistake. Why? Because my oldest uncle is going to a surgery soon and nobody knows if he'll make it alive.

Now, if that would be all, I'd say that mum is putting me on a guilt trip. But the thing is that I'm not 100 per cent sure if I'm complitely welcome to my boyfriend's sister's house later on tomorrow evening, which has been part of my hesitation all along. I cannot stay the night there for a fact, which tells me that I should not go there at all - it's a family gathering and I'm not part of her family yet. I'm family to my boyfriend, but that's just not the same.

Well, now I have to figure out what I want in this mess! Because I DO want to be there for my boyfriend when he needs me. But I DO want to see my uncle before it's too late (he is 72 and the other uncle is 71 and both have problems with their health).

Let's face it, I can't be in both places on the same time. The only way I can do it is to leave at 11.45 bus to Viitasaari, meet mum and then drive to Tervo to meet my uncles with her.

I'm well aware that this situation is nothing in comparison with the Middle East situation, but this is one minefield for sure. I feel that I cannot win in this thing! No matter what I do SOMEONE is upset.

Still obsessed with doing the right thing... I know. I just wish that I would somehow know what that is in this thing.