It's Lipstick jungle out there

The other day when I was getting ready for our visitors to arrive, I noticed that actually all my lipsticks are nearly used.

And then I recalled that both of these shades have already vanished from the market, which means that when they end, once again another beautiful shades vanish into lipstick history and that I must begin my search for a new shade from the scratch. Argh!

Now, I kinda like shopping, so searching for the new share is not that horrible per se, just that have you been to the make up department of one department store lately? There about zillion shades to choose from!

Luckily some shades are definetily a no-no from the first eye, some are not glittering enough (yeah, I like that. A LOT), some cost too much (yeah, I do not want to spend a tenner to my lipstick in case I dislike it after all), some are too creamy, some too pale... you'll get the picture.

After doing some serious lipstick browsing, trying and thinking I'm down to just two. (Yeah, I did see about 4 other insteresting ones with one expensive brand, but I once got their product as a gift and did not like it, so I decided not to try on any of those 4 interesting ones...) Two is managable amount. I did even check and see where they cost what and I noticed that I can save up to 6 euros when I walk like two meters from one store to another! Wow...

Naturally, one problem remains: which one?
That's why I have not bought a new lipstick just yet. So far, I have not been able to make up my mind ( hah hah) between the two finalists. They both are in the pink/purple section of reds, by different brands, both are new shades. One costs 3.95 euros, and the other 5.60. The first one is share 5, the other 15. The first one is bit lighter and brighter shade, the other darker and glitters more. Aaaaargh, this is hard!

This is why I love to use the same shades, heh heh. I used a beutiful, glittering shade by Maybelline for several years and nobody was as disappointed as me when they stopped making it. It fit me perfectly and made my lips sparkle like no other lipstick before it. And more than that, it made me sparkle!

Many men do not get how much make up means to women, especially lipsticks. They are part of identity in their own special way. A good lipstick makes all the difference! It brightens up a dark, rainy day, it brings joy, it gives you that extra something when you're on your way to a date or job interview. Lipstick matters!

Now, I'm not going to hurry with my desicion. I'm going to do another test run tomorrow and see what the two look like. I did found few older gift lipsticks from my closet, which means that if I don't find either finalist great tomorrow, I can manage with the oldies. They're not that brilliant, but they'll help me through the transition period.

Of course I could do what many women do: buy both. But then I'd lose the fun of making another shopping tour... ;-)

Finding My Own Voice

I strongly believe that things happen for a reason. They happen, because they're meant to. Setbacks can take us eventually higher, in a short run just stronger.

I have lived most of my life simply excisting and hoping and that I would find that special something, which would turn me into the person I'm meant to be. But only reading lots of self help literature has taught me to look for that passion inside of me. What are you passionate about? What you enjoy doing? What makes you happy?

Boy, have I asked those Qs over the years! And I have simply enjoyed reading, writing, motivating, inspiring and helping others. Not that I would have thought that I actually could combine them all to a one profession, not to mention a lifetime career!

But, knowing what I know, having been through what I have been through... I believe that it's complitely possible. In fact, the way I think about my life and life and dreams and other people in general has changed a lot during the past week or so. This change has been long time coming, that's sure. But I also know that without a share of setbacks I would have never found this place I am right now. And you know what? I kind of like this place. =)

Now, I've been a dreamer my whole life. This time around I'm not actually dreaming; I'm visualizing my future. It feels great, it feels right. And it's mine. I'm not expecting anyone to agree with me nor wait for anyone's approval. It's my choice, my life and my dreams.

Aguess you could say that I have found my own voice. Funny, but it was there all along, inside of me...............