That Crisis

I'm 26 now. Four years away from big 3-0.

I suppose I've been waiting for that 30 crisis to begin ever since I turned 24. I'm not sure what I'm supposed to stress about, but I sure am getting few signs. You see, I've been thinking about my life and especially my future a lot lately.

And to be totally honest, I'm not sure what I should be thinking about it.

You see, I've met that wonderful man I have always wanted to meet. Being with him makes little moments count and big things extra special. So my heart is fine and love department is doing great.

It my career/job - department, which truly worries me. I am slightly terrified about the future of my career. There are not that much jobs for journalists in this country and because, again, I was left without a summer job in a newspaper, my future looks bit darker. I do often think that what kind of papers one should have even to get invitation to interview! No idea... I've done my best, but clearly, it's not enough.

What really gets me down is that I can't get any kind of job. I've applied to so many that I've lost count! Cleaner, waitress, movie theatre worker, phone interviewer... always the same story: I don't hear anything back. Now, I know that I live in a city which has 85.000 inhabitants and 40.000 of them are students, which means that jobs are hard to get. Yet I thought, the optimist that I am, that I could land me one. My thumbs are still up and my mind is hopeful...

I do worry about my future employment. With creative industries it's always fickle. But what I've heard, it's not exactly easy for anyone. Still I hope that once I get my dissertation done and can apply jobs for real, my luck will mend and that I will find a great job among people who are great and earn money doing what I love.

So, I suppose I have pre-30s crisis coming. But I'm ready. I've had ch, I've lots my dad, I've lived abroad. I'm ready for nearly anything!