Friends, love & boyfriend

This weekend I'm going to introduce my boyfriend to my "girlclub"; four women who have been my friends since we were 13.

Now, ordinarily, I would be jumping up from joy without hesitation with an event like this ahead of me. Well, now a little cloud is shadowing my happy sky. You see, on the very same day, Saturday 12th, one of my dear friends was supposed to say "I do" to her fiance. Now the wedding is off and I'm bit worried if I'm doing the right thing.

I wanted to introduce my boyfriend on that particular day because of many reasons. One, we had arranged to travel to Helsinki anyway (originally for the wedding of course). Secondly, my name day is on Friday, so we can celebrate that, too. I've traditionally invited my friends over around that time, so we can continue that tradition although I live now 280 kilometers away. Thirdly, now my friend can be around her closest friends and she doesn't have to be alone - I'm aware that spending that day complitely alone could be devastating for her.

But, I'm also aware that it's bit ironic that I'm bringing my love to meet my pals on the very same day my friend was supposed to celebrate hers... Now, I know that she could have simply decline my invitation, but I also know that she's very good at hiding her hurts. The past has shown that.

I want to support my friend, but I also want to introduce my boyfriend in the best terms. It's not simple! But I'm going to do my best to get it right. It's not that easy to travel 280kms all the time and schedules are full now and everybody's going to be even more busy later on when uni starts again. So this IS the time to do it. Naturally I hoped that I could have arranged my pals to meet my boyfriend on happier terms, but that can't happen right now.

Well, I know that I am thinking too much about things sometimes. Maybe that is the case right here also... But like I've written in the past, doing the right thing matters to me. I know that I cannot alter my friend's romantic status (although I know a man who is interested in her), I can make sure that the meeting will take place in as comfortable and relaxed surroundings as possible.

Mum has warned that our front yard will look like a battlefield, though. The renovation works are not done yet...that sould make everyone at ease; you know, walk over a dirty yard should make everyone laugh before they're at my house! Well, at least, I hope so...

OK, I've done my worrying about the situation. Now I'll just concentrade on making a list about the things I need to make a nice evening for everybody and worry about what might come up later on. =)