I'm little lost - have you seen me somewhere?

The more I've read Jane Fonda's book My Life So Far, the more I have understood how important it is for me to find my own voice.

At 26, I (hopefully) have lots of time ahead of me, so I'd like to use it wisely. If I could pick it freely, I'd follow my heart, write and work to help others along the way. So, what's stopping me now? Well, just the fact, that I feel that I don't feel passionate enough about one thing. And I think that it is very important that one feels passionate about things one does. Now, I am well aware, that more often than not, one cannot just choose profession and job like that. It's not that simple. Usually you study one thing and easily end up doing something else. I just wish that my "that something" is something I'm passionate about.

I also know that it took Jane Fonda more than 60 years to truly connect with herself. Knowing that gave me lots of hope. It made me realize, that these questions I've been asking myself (who I am, what I want to do, what excited me, what I'm about...) ARE important - but that I have time to figure them out. I shoudn't rush myself, I'll find out the answers, when the time is right.

During the past few years I have been making "room for me", so to say. I have read lots of self help books, thought about my values and priorities and really wondered who I am and what I want from my life. I stayed single for a quite a while, because I wanted to heal myself before I wanted to be with someone, so that I would not hurt them in the process.

Where am I now, then? It's hard to say, to be honest. I'm still climbing to that mountain, so I cannot yet stand on the top and realize, how small that mountain truly was. I hope that someday I can do that, though...

I've often said, that the day I stop learning new things is the day that I die. I know that getting to know myself is a process, which is not actually ever done, but constantly in development. But it would hell of a lot easier to guide the ship called my life somewhere, if I knew clearly where I want to go. It's bit of a haze right now.

But I have faith, I have hope and I'm in love. Sounds like a winning combo to me! ;-)