So the heart grows bigger

I am not the same woman I was 8 months ago.

During these months I've been with my boyfriend have taught me a lot about myself, my dreams, my values, about life in general. I've faced several painful discoveries, which have made me stronger, better and, well, more me.

To be honest, if I had met this man few years ago, I don't think that we'd be together. We both were different people then. And while we've been together, I've learned a lot about love and relationships. And I have come across many stories about relationships, which would have made me too scared to fall if I had read them beforehand! ;-)

I knew beforehand, though, that the people we fall in love with, come into our lives for a reason. They make us confront some difficult issues we have been avoiding to face. And if we can do that, our hearts will grow bigger and our love will turn deeper. I feel that's already happened. It's good to feel close to him, in many ways.

When I was wathing TV the other day, I saw people discussing about women, who lose themselves in a relationship. That they become suddenly someone else, someone they thin 'they should be'. In my case, I think I'm turning more into the one I have always wanted to be. I'm finding more courage, more strength, more guts, more me, inside of myself.

That's one of the reasons why I feel so relaxed about ch's possible full return. I simply take it as it comes; if it will show up, it will. I have energy drinks on my fridge and a man who supports me. I've learned to relax more - one lesson he has taught me.