CHit happends

Ok, one sunny day and loads of Ch action.

I went from this afternoon's heavy shadowing into this evening's hit. Great.

Like I've written in the past, I know how to deal with this beast. Grab Red Bull, lots of ice and drink up. Grab 2 caffeine tablets and glass of water, consume them and wait. Few minutes and PF time is back. Naturally, the question is now: for how long?

It's August now, not October, November or March... But the beast has shown before that it pretty much does what it wants. I just hope that tomorrow, when I travel 4 hours in train with my boyfriend, I could travel PF. I will take caffeine tablets and Vicks red energy tablets with me, so I'm prepared in case the devil has decided to show up.

I have stocked up: there's two Red Bull's getting ice cold in my fridge. I have made sure that there's 2 more at mum's fridge (I do recall too well getting hit half and hour before my friends were due to arrive the last time I was hosting a get-together) and one at my boyfriend's. I want to be sure that whenever I get hit, meds are closeby. Knowing that makes dealing with ch hell of a lot easier! If there are problems, the solution is just a short walk away.

Now, I don't mind getting another cycle. I just don't want to turn into chronic again! Hell, that gets to a girl... Hit, after hit, after hit and no idea about when it ends, if the cycle ends. It gets to you on so many levels.

It's great that my boyfriend is also my supporter. He has read lots about ch and I have told him how he can help me when I get hit. Having someone like that in my life is new; my mother, other relatives and friends have not really understood what ch is, what the hits are like and what kind of impact it all has on me. Not that I haven't tried! I have. I've been a sufferer since 2001, but it took this spring's cycle to get mum on the same page with me. When I think about my pals, 3 are sympathetic, the rest just avoid the subject or mention something about knowing what headaches are like... Chey, so do I. I've had HAs since I was 12... But ch is different.

These days I've decided that I give up trying to educate my family and other closeones. My aunt tells me that I "imagine" my pain and hits. Frankly, I WISH that I had that great imagination! Then I could imagine it away, too.

Now I simply do what I need to do and don't even mention about it to anyone. It's waste of time and energy - when ch comes, I need all of my energy to get rid of it! I'm optimitic person, so I don't declare a new cycle yet. If the weekend is filled with hits, well, then it's another story. Right now it's just odd off- cycle hits.

Here's to PF days!