sadness

Today was one of those sad, sad days. Most of all, a sad day without a particular reason why.
I cried first thing in the morning... And there were tears on my eyes all through the day. Nothing that sad took place, but it didn't matter. I've had this sad undertone for a long time now inspite some very happy days. This is the "down" period. I just wish that it won't go on for good...

I had depression last spring. I wasn't dignosed, but I knew what it was. I cried a lot back then. I stayed a lot at home, wishing I'd snap out of it. But it took its time. I do recall that one day it was gone, just like that. I hope that it's like that this time, too. If it even gets that far.

I've had these sadness - periods all through my short life. They've been short, though. A day or two at the tops. Last spring was different. I knew it. And I feel the same way now. I haven't told anyone about this. Now I wonder if I should. Perhaps I should go to see a doctor. I just don't know. I feel so helpless and alone. I can't tell my friends and my mum would not undestand. That's life, I suppose. Snap out of it.